I’ve realized today that its good to review and reflect on what I’ve learned or experienced. as it seems I’ve begun a cycle again, gone back into old habits doing the same things I said I wouldn’t anymore. I’m not a huge fan of these habits as they’re nasty ugly habits that make me less loving and more hateful it seems. I find that I am short fused and get aggravated easily.
Change doesn’t happen on its own, it requires action to make something happen. I’ve been allowing this cycle of defeat and disparate continue too long. I need to take control of myself and my life. I need to stop believing that my thoughts are not my own, I need to stop creating a hell for myself and actually go out and live.