Dominoes. You spend so much time setting them all just to have it all crumble down in a instant. What could have been destroyed by one simple push, be it a mistake or on purpose when it happens it happens. Sometimes I feel like I don’t even setup the dominoes, I Just knock down the ones I’ve been giving, not one by one but all at once.
mistake after mistake. is it up for debate or should i just accept it as fate?
I’ve been listening to the band trampled by turtles on occasion, they have a cover of the song where is my mind by the pixies, and the questions posed in the song are highly relatable for me. Where is my mind? does it really exist or is it another figment of my imagination.
What a Long Strange Trip Its been
The farther I go into this trip of life the longer I wonder how strange its been, things changing my perspective altered by the substances I’ve introduced into My consciousness. I still can remember the point where things seemed to break, a turning point where my life seems to have changed forever, at least this far into forever, for is forever really real? Ever since that point I’ve had trouble focusing, I self categorized it as apathy, which is defined by the Merlin Webster dictionary as “a lack of interest, desire”. For Example a lot of high school students are apathetic towards their schooling. Perhaps I’m wrong in defining myself as apathetic.. To me it could be that I am unsure if I am worth the time or energy spent.. Its been over three years since my last fling, since I’ve last been kissed, since I Held the hands of the one I had thought I was in love with, even though it was all red flags and I ignored every one of them claiming that they didn’t matter, and for a time they didn’t until all of a sudden they all mattered and the illusion i was living at the time smashed to bits and I was left with the reality of the situation.