I don’t really use this as much as I should, probably because I don’t really know what to say. Even when I write something out I might change my mind before posting it or even after, and I’ll remove it. Maybe I’m too critical on myself, maybe I just change my mind. It’s not that I don’t want to post something, it’s more I don’t know what to write. Being that this is public for anyone to find or see kinda change my opinion on what I could say. As anything I say even if I’m just upset or angry could get to the person I’m taking about and upset them, and I don’t want to cause anyone harm. I just wanna live my life and learn how to be a better person. I’ve made a lot of mistakes during my short life, some I’ve repeated. Others stick with me like an ant to sugar. Perhaps I should just start posting about what I learn along the way. I had hoped to attach a music video to each post as a kinda theme, but after the first post which was inspired by a song partially it become harder to do. Maybe I was right when I said I’m too critical on myself. Perhaps it’s just another part of myself I need to work on – improve? I know I want to add my poems on writings on here. I hope that some written year ago won’t cause those they were about any heartache or pain. Maybe I should change some of the names and places as long as the meanings stay the same.. I guess we’ll find out with time. Hopefully I do something soon, before I’m dead. Otherwise I wasted my time and money. One of which I can never get back. I d had so many ideas of things to do, but my actions don’t always line up and things fall through. Perhaps I just need to work on these parts to improve.